Das andere Ich

When creating a record of a dream it is inevitable to put the self in the center. I did so for the editing of this project, which I started around my 40th birthday. I built stepping stones with images from my archive. This process allows me to reflect on my Self. At the moment, the only limit is the distance to my film archive, or more precisely, the film material I did not scan, before I left for the U.S. in 2018. In fact, I went totally digital from this moment on. I will go on to develope the sequence further, once I have access to the material, when I´m back, this year in May.

For this project, I left for a journey through the dimension of my lifetime. Das andere Ich, in German, my mother tongue, translates to 'The Other Self'. To look at this sequence feels like a conversation with myself. It seems, if I seek an inner dialogue, that I have to include my emotions about the movement of my life at any decisive moment (be it taking or editing pictures). I organized the selected images in a way that it reflects my affection to the subject. Therefore, I see Das andere ich as a preparation for my return home, after a long absence. This reconstruction of my past and dwelling on elusive vicissitudes of my life, will reveal myself beyond my conciousness. That, in return, allows me to know better the other: my subject. To know my subject better means this process of self-examination will deepen my integrity for a follow-up project, which will be on migration in Europe. This project I will start this summer.

Das andere Ich is open ended. Despite the two profound changes, in form of a pandemic and a fierce conflict in Ukraine, which both surged during my absence from home, I feel obliged and ready to turn my absence into presence and invest the maximum of myself to face the reality of the crisis.

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A flee market. Odessa, Ukraine. Summer of 2012.
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My 40th birthday. La Faena, Mexcio City. March 5, 2022.
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On the way to meet my friend's dad and new family at their house. Mexico City. Novembre 25, 2020.

It was the first and only time I would meet Raúl, Talia's dad. He unexpectedly died from COVID-19, 22 days after our visit. Therefore, we later thought about the possibility that we could have contracted the virus.

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Zoom meeting with René, my dad. Mexico City. January 30, 2022.

After Talia´s dad passed away, on December 18, 2020, I thought about what my dad means to me. After I asked him to show me a bit about webdesign, we were having regular virtual meetings. Soon our meetings turned into long talks about what is happening in the world and stories of our past. I feel that in those meetings we both have the opportunity to know each other from a fresh perspective and developed a true friendship.

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Women´s March. Mexico City. March 8, 2020.

The girl in frame almost sprayed paint in my face. I did not know that women in the march may turn separatist.

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With Lorand I visited the first time Romania, in the summer of 2000. I had the pleasure to meet with his grandparents. Munich, Germany. 2009.
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Bahatin suffers paranoia. Berlin, Germany. 2011.

Born into a Kurdish family, Bahatin grew up near the Iron Curtain, in West Berlin, during the 1980´s. He witnessed in person the fall of the Berlin wall and the change of the system thereafter.

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Eduardo with his choir during a rehersal. Mexico City. Summer of 2021.
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The Egyptian Theater. Montrose, Colorado, U.S. May 6, 2020.

This is a movie theater in the town where I was living during the process for my Green Card. Here it is how I found it after I had returned from a four-month trip to Mexico, during which the pandemic has broken out.

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Talia is performing one of her own written dramas. Mexico City. Fall of 2021.

Due to the pandemic, she has to perform via live-stream. Her intimate space has become a stage.

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Self-portrait. Montrose, Colorado, U.S. November 27, 2018.

This is at a farm house, where I was living with Kate, my wife,during the process for my Green Card.

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En route from Montrose to Denver. Gunnison, Colorado, U.S. August 15, 2018.
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Stefen, a movie fanatic. Salida, Colorado, U.S. January 2019.

Stefen showed me how conspiracy theories are communicated in movies.

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A walk in the snow with Kate´s dog. He died unexpectatly one year later. Castle in Schwangau, Bavaria, Germany. Winter of 2016.
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A photo that shows me on a trip with Bella, my aunt, in Togo, Africa, in 1988. The train was built by the Germans, in the colonial period.
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New Mexico Art Museeum. Santa Fe, New Mexico, U.S. November 22, 2018.
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I learned to install irigation systems to make a living during the process for my Green Card. Delta, Colorado, U.S. Spring of 2019.
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Daniel in his apartment. Los Angeles, California, U.S. October 2021.

Daniel has taught me many skills in the movie industry. We have been friends since our teens. I visited him for his graduation ceremony at the American Film Institute.

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Bavaria, Germany.
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My mum in her workshop. Hausen-Salgen, Bavaria, Germany. Summer of 2013.
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Kate, her dog, and I on a roadtrip through the Balkans. Black Sea, Bulgaria. Summer of 2016.
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Shay and his dad. Tel Aviv, Israel. Summer of 2011.

They are from Ukraine. Shay´s parents immigrated to Israel in the 1980´s.

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A balloon of the Iron Dome defence system. Yakhini, Israel. Summer of 2011.

This balloon detects ballistic missiles which come from Gaza.